Special K has gotten into wanting to be nursed back to sleep every couple of hours. Back in December we had been getting a 6-8 hour stretch without a peep from her. Now I'm a human pacifier. Ugh. So last night we worked on me not being the human pacifier... which goes against every motherly fiber of my being.
She cried.
A lot.
A long time.
First Mark held her. Then I held her.
I got her to sleep - without nursing - for all of 6 minutes.
Then she cried some more.
Mark held her, and I put my head under the pillow.
In total, an hour and twenty minutes later (*correction: Mark has informed me it was closer to two hours- whoa), she was asleep. For four more hours.
So awful and I'm afraid what tonight will bring too. We'll (read Maba) will get through this. But it sucks. Thankfully the boys slept through it all or it would have been a much shorter night than it already was.
On a happier note, though sad in itself too, it is Madeline Logelin's 1st bday today. Me and the kids follow her life on her daddy's blog. Next to Kennedy, probably the cutest baby I know. Happy Birthday Madeline! I am saying prayers for her and her dad today and tomorrow as he honors the happiest and saddest days of his life. I'm praying for peace in his heart, as are many others today.
